1.6|No Lust Lost

1.6|No Lust Lost

 

Protas turned to the girl next to her and opened her mouth, a scream that would echo for years, as to say the horror of this dream before waking was the truth. "A-Are you okay?" She turned around and flipped over the bedsheets, revealing a young 20-something girl with light brown hair, black and pink highlights and a black miniskirt.

"Huh? W-what?" No snow, no labs or woods. Just a quiet bedroom and a very concerned roomie.

"Protas! Are you okay? You were screaming and shivering." The girl said, pulling herself up abit on the bed. Protas sighed, she, wasn't El-Lin was she? Everything felt so vivid, she couldn't tell if El-Lin was waking up transformed into herself, or if Protas was recalling something very unlike herself once again. The girl started to go through her mental checklist. She had no idea how to find out who she was, but these dreams weren't helping. "Don't worry, you're safe. Everything's going to be okay."

"Thanks.. I know. I'll be fine.. Raelyn." Protas threw her arms around her girlfriend, kissing her forehead in the dark. There was an immediate feeling of relief. Not knowing if you were still living or not, knowing you would always live, no matter the circumstances, and having no idea how or who you would live on as, was.. terrifying, confusing, and frightening to her. The two girls hugged for a while, their breaths syncing with one another, before they separated and laid quietly on the bed.

"I love you Pro. You can confide in me you know."

"I love you too Rae, this will never change, but I need to tell you something. I feel so.. so trapped in a world that's not real, and with all the things I've been seeing, I feel like I'm being watched. I don't know if it's a real thing, or if I'm crazy. I keep thinking someone's going to come after me, you know.  Raelyn felt like she was falling asleep. Her room was warm, and she could smell lavander from Protas's perfume. "Protas, I'm tired.." She placed her forehead to her better half. "Tomorrow we'll venture out and see okay? Just stay with me here tonight. We'll figure this out." She ran her hands through Protas's wavy hair.

"We'll figure it out. I love you. I will always love you."

"Nite Rae."